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2009? Aw crap.

Sun Jan 4, 2009, 6:30 PM
  • Mood: Shame
  • Listening to: James Brown
  • Reading: Too fat to fish
  • Watching: Tom and Jerry
  • Playing: Wii Sports
  • Eating: oh my darlin' clementine
  • Drinking: no!
Only 3 more years till the end of the world.

I've had a lot of anxiety lately over how much, or rather, how little I've drawn over the past year. I can't get over the frustration. I can't stop procrastinating, I don't even feel comfortable in my own space and there's always a distraction. I'm not sure if it's cause or effect of depression but I really need to get over it.

Last night I had a dream that all of my erasing left not even a trace of pencil lines. I had finally found the secret of erasing that had eluded so many for so long. Perfect, white paper with nice clean drawings. When I woke up it was like waking up from a lottery dream. Sigh.

All of the waitresses around these parts say "Youz." As in "Can I get youz anything else?" This cracks me up for some reason. Is youz a word in your neighborhood?

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:iconhemato:
Well, no one says "you" anywhere around here. It's all "ya". Proximity to Canada would be my best guess.

If it matters at all, I fuckin' love seeing your drawings and comics and I want to take in as many as you can possibly post up here. Hell, even if you've gotta force yourself it'll be more than worth it. Besides, not drawing is both a cause and effect of depression. For me it just goes around and around in a horrific circle - if I'm not working on anything I'm drinking and then I end up doing even more drinking because I'm pissed off about not making any art. Fuck that shit.

Anyway, if that's out of line or inapplicable just ignore it. That's just what always happens to me.
:iconzombieblowfish:
Yeah, I ain't gonna lie. That's part of the problem. Fuck that shit indeed.
:iconammathorn:
before i did outlet...i exercised my line muscles on the couch of the 1st page. to make your stuff confident you gotta fuck up a billion times...that way no matter what you make, it still looks good. Confidence comes with the feeling of what you're doing feels right and not that it looks good. Hope that makes sense to you.
:iconroadkillroy:
Depends.. I live in a place where we say "youse" ironically, so it manages to slip in for real on occasion. I think "Y'all" may be more prevalent though.
:iconoh-the-humanatee:
In the South, all we got are "y'alls". As in "Can I git y'all some mo sweet tea, baby?"

And friend, you gotta quit worrying so much about the small fuck ups that inevitably come with drawing. All those little things will keep you from drawing at all. Try and remember how fun it was to draw when you where a kid and were not objective about what the end result was. Remember how just making stuff on paper gave you a strange floating feeling in your head. Remember when every kid you knew drew something almost every day and never worried about the quality of what they made. That's how drawing is supposed to be. It's hard to get back to that beautiful, primitive state and the only path there is to draw and draw and draw some more and not worry so much about whether it's good or not. This is a lesson I learned in the last year and, shit, I made more stuff this year than in the 10 previous glued together. Not all of it was very good, but each bit helped get me somewhere, even if it's not yet where I want to be. So yeah, goddamn, fuck this pep talk shit and get out there and kick some fuckin' ass. For reals.
:iconzombieblowfish:
I know, you're right. I love watching my daughter draw. She draws creative circles around me without even thinking about it. Yeah, I want that back.

I'm going to try to take your fine advise and relax and draw. I'm going to force myself to do sketchbook page a day. Every day.

And let me say that you have had a great year. I love your sketchbook and I see it getting better and better. I also see you around the boards encouraging others. You're all right Humanatee. Thanks for the pep and best wishes for the 2009.
:iconoh-the-humanatee:
Yeah man, you're too awesome to be crippled by art funk. Time to get on the good foot, as James would say. Also, this year I read Lynda Barry's book "What It Is" and it really, really inspired me (I actually stole most of that advice from her). Check it out if you ever come across it. Good luck, brother!
:iconbermudahighway:
Around here it's "yinz." "Can I get yinz guys some more I-errrrns and anudder plate o' perewgies?"

I know how you feel, and honestly, you draw more than I do so if it might brighten your day, you can come and laugh derisively at my meager collection anytime.

P.S. 2012 will be the ultimate eraser you dream of.

--
"Grief can take care of itself, but to get the full value of a joy you must have somebody to divide it with." - Mark Twain
:iconzombieblowfish:
You just reminded me of a kid who moved to my neighborhood in Jersey in sixth grade. He used to say "yinz." He once brought a cyst to school in a jar.

I tried some derisive laughter but it didn't help. Thanks though.
:iconbermudahighway:
Yep, sounds like a Pittsburgher. Did he eat the cyst? He may be from my home town.

--
"Grief can take care of itself, but to get the full value of a joy you must have somebody to divide it with." - Mark Twain

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